2000 First daughter was born at the beginning of my training.
2003 First son was born at the establishing own company.
2009 Second daughter was born when striating own products
They all have been born when I initiated something new and/or I need to hang in there.
Thanks to them, I was not able to escape from new challenges.
They enabled me playing fake stoicism.
They made me think of me having no choice other than overcoming challenges.
I have never done what fathers are supposed to do.
My family is as if fatherless family.
All what I can do would be just loving them.
I have been having my hands full.
I have nothing specials to teach them, while, I would hope them to feel something from me.
What I would like to convey is there are no equality in the world.
Since being born, differences exist in appearance, capability, personality, and environment.
24 hours per day, 365 days per annum.
Even time would not be equally available.
It would be completely different between the time to be given time and time available to be utilized proactively.
It is always unequal and unfair.
That is why human beings would be free.
There is none to be worried about.
I would like for them to free from dreams and goals.
We should not lose freedom due to such trivial stuffs.
I would like them to live in line with more longer term movements.
Looking from very high level, it is impossible to change our origins.
What we can do and our capability may neither be many nor dramatically increase.
What we can do and cannot do would be already given since our birth and would not be changed at all.
So, we cannot change our futures whatever we do.
I believe we are living in the already written stories.
I believe everything has been already decided.
I cannot live in other than what we can do and we cannot do.
I live in my given conditions.
When resisting it, we cannot go forwards.
Dreams and goals would interfere smooth flow.
It keeps you from freedom required.
Rather, accepting this moment and leave ourselves to major flow.
What is required would be just seriously executing what we can do and what others expect on you.
Then, we are connected to the society.
At the end, it is connected to freedom in the future.
So, you do not worry about futures which may not be visible now.
It will be connected for sure.
And, I hope they find their own place some day.
It may be water, land, or sky.
If water, whether it is rivers or lakes ?
Or it may be ponds or marshes.
Somewhere you would be really comfortable rather than admirations and/or ideals.
You may feel oceans appear to be better than marshes.
However, it is not good at all.
Creature suitable for marshes may not survive in oceans. The opposite is also true.
You are purely yourself.
It may be different from your ideal situations, however, when you accept it, you are able to acquire unlimited freedoms.
Freedom would be alternatives unlimitedly open to you now due to connecting to the society.
The responsibility, performing what are able to do, would give us freedom.
It is not matter of what kind of occupation.
It is matter of neither titles nor money.
It is matter where your mind exist.
It would be place where your soul exist if I would say cheekily.
Someday, you will realize you have lived for this.
I believe you are able to meet your providence.
However, actually, your father has been still struggling.
I have tended to cope with the long-awaited major flow on which I finally managed to ride.
I still do not understand myself.
I have not accepted what I am.
I have tended to be tied up with my small dreams and goals.
However, I have recently think of it as is.
I would not change so much from now for entire my life.
It would be the state where the person whose self-scoring is 20 percent out of 100.
I have not reached this state.
I have been gradually realizing it.
Recently, I was told by third daughter in third year in the junior high school.
"I am pleased to have you as my father."
I replied "Of course, I have the self-confidence."
I really appreciate them.
I have tried not showing my weakness for show-off.
Thanks to them, somehow I would taken shape somehow.